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Nokwazi
The following days were okay. My bruises were healing and i was getting
out the following day. Today is Friday and its so warm inside here. I have
been complaining about the cold that they made my room super warm. I
had a cast on my arm and i could walk now.
It wasn’t as bad. I woke up and took a bath. I went to my ward and found
the caterers setting up my breakfast. I wore another clean set of pyjamas.
Nqubeko went overboard with those. I had about 10 sets and he said he’ll
buy more is i need them. I settled for a peach onesie and fluffy white
socks. I sat on a chair next to the bed as i was tired of being in bed the
whole day.
After the breakfast set up the left. There was a rose on the tray “ You are
beautiful. I love you” even though Nqubeko has been keeping his
distance he also has been amazingly romantic. He always checks on me
but gives me kisses on the cheek.
I haven’t given him his answer yet. I will give it tomorrow when we leave
the hospital. I love him and i want to spend my life with him.
I ate my breakfast and after that i went for a walk. I got out the hospital
and sat by the entrance. I could see Gateway a minute away. I wanted to
go but the attire didn’t allow me. I looked up and saw Nqubeko standing
in front of me with hands in his pockets.
Nqubeko: “ Morning” he looked down at me with blood shot eyes i stood
up quickly and tried to touch his arm but he backed away.
Me: “ Nqubeko; what’s going on?” he shook his head countless times.
Nqubeko: “ I’m fine. Why are you out here?” that hurt that he was
avoiding my question. He was pushing me away just like i did and that
hurt like hell.
Me: “ Why won’t you talk to me?” he chuckled before sitting next to me.
His hands were on his face and he kept doing breathing exercise.
Nqubeko: “ I’m fine really” he gave a faint smile.
Me: “ If you don’t talk to me you might as well leave” he chuckled and
stood up. He started walking away i went to him.
Me: “ Stop! Please stop! Tell me what’s wrong. Nqubeko please; i beg
you please tell me” his shoulders shook and i just knew that he was
crying.
Nqubeko: “ I have no one” he whispered that i almost didn’t hear him. I
took his hand and we headed back inside my ward. I got in the ward and
closed the door after asking not to be disturbed. I got in bed and made
space for him to sit.
Me: “ Talk to me my love” he pulled me to his chest and sighed deeply
before he started to speak....
Nqubeko
Today its Thursday and i plan on going to see my brother. I have been
putting it off for a while now so i think its time because he has been
asking for me. Xoli begged me to go. She is on his side and so is
Nokwazi. I woke up and went for a jog. I ran so much that i found myself
in La Lucia. I chuckled and walked back home. It took me almost 2 hours
to get there. I got home and mah Londi just got home from work. She
was having breakfast with Thuli.
Me: “ Morning” i greeted and went to the fridge. I took out milk and drank
from its container. I felt a slap on the back of my head that i chocked
coughing
Miss K: “ Sies man Nqubeko. Sies” she walked out of the kitchen and i
laughed.
Me: “ When is she moving to her house again?” Thuli just laughed.
Miss K: “ I heard that you moron!” i went to sit down and dished up for
myself. Siphe was safely strapped in his supportive chair. I enjoyed my
breakfast and i even had seconds. After that i went to take a shower. I
stepped out the shower and went to look for clothes to wear.
It was the damn festive season and i spent the New Year in my bedroom
which was 2 days ago. Sanele was probably locked up in his bedroom
with Denise. Those 2. I settled for Knee length shorts, maroon sneakers
and a black t-shirt.
I took my car keys and went to the nursery. Thuli was getting ready to put
Siphe to sleep i offered to do it. I took him and sat on his rocking chair. I
gave him the bottle which was filled with his mom’s breast milk. He
sucked on it as his eyelids started to close. I rocked him until he sighed;
that’s when i put him to bed because he was now deep in sleep.
I got out his room and went to check on Sanele. I knocked in his room
and he opened wearing sweatpants and socks only. I tried peeping in but
he stepped out and closed the door.
Me: “ What or who are you hiding in there?” he chuckled rubbing his
head.
Sanele: “ I’m not hiding anything or anyone” i smiled
Me: “ Don’t get her pregnant” his eyes widened.
Sanele: “ I swear we’re not doing anything. We just...” i raised my
eyebrows and waited for him to finish.
Me: “ You’re just what?” he shook his head looking down.
Sanele: “ Nothing” i chuckled.
Me: “ I had sex when i was 12 my man. So don’t feel embarrassed” his
eyes shot up. I was in stitches.
Sanele: “ We’re really not doing anything” i gave him a pat on his
shoulder before walking away
Me: “ At least tongue her dude” i said walking away.
Sanele: “ Already did” i heard the door close as i turned around. He was
no longer there. I smiled and walked to the garage. I decided on taking
the vrrr phaa today. After seeing Nqoba i was going to go Kwa Mashu to
see my mates; hence the outfit.
I drove to town, he was being kept at CR Swat. He is supposed to be in
jail right now but i asked a few favours from people that need to return
favours to me. I got there and i was placed in the interrogations room.
The door opened minutes later and he walked in.
He looked so awful and thin. He had lost so much weight plus the facial
hair was just too much. Nqoba is bald so seeing him with hair made him
look ugly. At least he had decent clothing which i think Xoli is responsible
for.
Me: “ Man you look like a hobo” i said as soon as he sat down. He gave
me a faint smile before looking down. Tears gushed down his cheeks and
i leaned forward.
Me: “ Not yet bro. No tears just yet. You need to explain to me. Why?” i
asked looking at him. I felt the anger rise.
Nqoba: “ I stopped taking my pills. When i found out about my paternity i
guess that’s when i lost it. I went as far as cheating on Xoli. I had sex with
2 women in front of her. That’s when i knew i had a problem” he sobbed.
Me: “ Why were you at my house that day?”
Nqoba: “ I was..” i cut him off.
Me: “ Look at me you piece of shit” he looked up at me and he looked so
broken.
Nqoba: “ I am sorry Nqubeko. I went to your house to look for Xoli. When
i got there Kwazi was in the shower and i was panicking. My heart was
telling me to leave but my head said i should go for it. I wasn’t thinking
straight. I don’t even like Kwazi that way. I remember i even said that she
was supposed to be mine but i didn’t mean it. I didn’t mean it at all
because i love my Xoli and i only see Kwazi as a sister. Nqubeko i need
help” he was breathing hard and fast.
Me: “ What do you mean?” i leaned back on a chair.
Nqoba: “ I need to go back to the facility and..” i shook my head.
Me: “ You need to be surrounded by family dude. You can’t just leave.
You have..” he also cut me off.
Nqoba: “ I’ll be back before Xoli gives birth. I spoke to Kwazi and she is
having me released as soon as she gets discharge. Will go to the facility
straight from here”
Me: “ You hurt me Nqobani. You should have came to me but instead you
chose to hurt me. You chose to hurt your family. Look at how things are
right now. I have been so angry at you; ready to cut you off but Nokwazi
and Xoli begged me to come see you. Seeing you like this hurts me
because i promised mom that i would take care of you. I am so
disappointed in you baby bro” he was shaking his head this whole time.
Nqoba: “ That is why i have to go. I have to get my act together and come
back. I’ll be good i promise” he said that with tears running down his
cheeks i also cried. I held his hand over the table.
Me: “ You’ll be okay” he sobbed yet again.
Nqoba: “ I am not your brother Nqubeko. Mom was raped and i am a
curse to society. I am so sorry Nqubeko. I wish mom was here i would
also apologise to her”
Me: “ It’s not your fault. He took advantage of mom. Dad loves you. You
are his son.”
Nqoba: “ He came to see me. He is the one who will book me in.”
Me: “ You see, your family loves you”
Officer: “ Times up” i looked at this ass.
Me: “ Voetsek wena! I fuckin pay your bosses boss. Fuck out of here”
Nqoba chuckled.
Nqoba: “ I am usually the one who says that. Bro i will see you in 7
months”
Me: “ I’ll come visit you” he shook his head no.
Nqoba: “ I’d rather you didn’t. Take care of your family. I love you” he
stood up and headed to the door.
Me: “ We are not done talking” he gave me a faint smile before walking
out. I sat there and i let the tears fall. After crying like a bitch i walked out
and drove home. I didn’t even go to Umlazi. I wanted to see dad.
I got there and he was with Naledi. She was so beautiful. I took her and
we walked outside.
Me: “ Hey dad. How are you?” i kissed Ledi and she giggled.
Dad: “ Son, how are you?” he looked troubled
Me: “ I asked you first but I’m fine. I just came back from visiting Nqoba
and he told me you will book him in” he nodded.
Dad: “ That’s correct and i will also go to New York afterwards” i looked at
him waiting for further explanation but he just kept quiet
Me: “ You are going on business?” he shook his head.
Dad: “ Actually i wanted to talk to you about that. You remember we
spoke of a merger” i nodded.
Me: “ Yes i remember but you changed your mind because you thought i
would screw up your business” he chuckled.
Dad: “ Yeah well you were still a boy then but now you’re grown up my
boy. You’re a man and i couldn’t be more proud of you” he looked down
smiling.
Me: “ Dad what’s going on?” i went to sit next to him.
Dad: “ Nothing son. I want that merger to happen. I will be leaving in a
few weeks”
Me: “ When are you coming back?” i inched closer to him.
Dad: “ Take care of my son Nqubeko. When he comes back make sure
that he is taken care of. I love you both so much. Well i love the 3 of you
very much. You, Nqoba and Ledi mean the world to me. Take care of
Nqobani.”
Me: “ You’re scaring me Dad. When will come back”
Dad: “ I’m not. Ledi and i are moving there permanently” he said that and
walked back into the house leaving me shocked and confused.
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Nokwazi
The following day i got out of hospital. Nqubeko came to fetch me. He
really was heart broken about his family leaving him but i assured him
that Nqobani was going to come back and they would pick up the pieces
together. We went past CR to have Nqoba released and he left for the
facility straight from the police station.
It broke my heart to see Nqubeko suffer that way but there was nothing i
could do to convince his father and brother to stay. They both had
reasons that made them want to leave and the best that i could do was to
be there for Nqubeko.
We drove home in silence from the hospital. I looked at him and he
looked pissed. I decided not to even ask him. Wee got home and he took
the bags inside leaving me in the car. I sighed and opened the door. He
appeared again and lifted me up causing me to giggle. That put a smile
on his face.
Me: “ I can walk hey” i said leaning my head on his shoulder.
Nqubeko: “ I know. You just feel good in my arms” i blushed.
Me: “ Well I’m glad i still mean something to you. You won’t even look at
me” he kept quiet and walked to our bedroom. He got in and laid me
down. He went to close the door; he came took off my shoes and tucked
me in. He sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me.
Nqubeko: “ You’re okay with being here; in our bedroom?” he looked
worried.
Me: “ Why wouldn’t i be okay?” i knew where he was going with this but i
seriously was okay. I didn’t mind being here.
Nqubeko: “ This room holds bad memories for you” i shook my head no.
Me: “ No; I’m okay. I promise. Stop worrying” he nodded tightening his
jaws.
Nqubeko: “ You need anything?” his eyes were roaming around my face.
Me: “ Can i go sit outside please?” he frowned shaking his head.
Nqubeko: “ It’s raining babe. I can’t have you go outside” i let out a deep
breath that i didn’t know i was holding. He raised his brow.
Me: “ I never thought I’d hear you call me babe again” he chuckled.
Nqubeko: “ I’ve been having not so great thoughts. It just feels like the
world is on my shoulders”
Me: “ Hey. I’m here for you; with you. I promise babe.” He smiled and
looked on the floor.
Nqubeko: “ I wish mom was here. This is really too much for me to deal
with” i scooped closer to him and laid my head in his shoulder
Me: “ Your shoulders are wide enough for you to carry this burden. You
are strong Nqubeko. If it gets very tough come to me and fuck me
senseless” he looked at me shocked then burst out laughing.
Nqubeko: “ Oh I love you. You are awesome” i giggled.
Me: “ I love you too. I am here for you anytime you need me” he looked at
me wiggling his eyebrows.
Nqubeko: “ So 08 January is your birthday” i blushed.
Me: “ Yep. I’m turning 24”
Nqubeko: “ Plus you’re getting married on your birthday.” My eyes shot
up.
Nqubeko: “ What? I told you at the hospital that we are getting married on
the 8th” he said in a serious
tone.
Me: “ I thought you were joking” he chuckled. It was great seeing him like
that again. I have been so worried that he won’t be the same again.
Nqubeko: “ Besides; i have to marry you soon. At least dad will still be
here” he sighed. These people were hurting my baby boo.
Me: “ Why is he leaving babe? Make me understand why he’s leaving
you with such responsibility with the plan of giving you everything he
owns.”
Nqubeko: “ He is finally free of Carol. He wants to do what he’s always
wanted to do and that is to relocate to New York. They always spoke
about going there but i guess God had other plans.”
Me: “ Wait; he’s free of Carol? How?” he took off his shoes and t-shirt.
Haibo guys this guy was carved just for me to drool over him. Freakin
sexy and i want to run my tongue all over his body. I heard him clearing
his throat. I looked at him and bit my upper lip. He raised a brow with this
silly boyish smile.
Nqubeko: “ Stop raping me with your eyes and scoot. I want to cuddle” i
blushed as i made space for him to sit. He pulled me to his naked chest
that had my name and Siphe’s name on it 􁛮.
Me: “ So...tell me!” he kissed my forehead and kept quiet for a long time. I
even thought that he was asleep.
Nqubeko: “ Mom and Carol’s mom were friends. They owned a business
together. When her mom died she left strict instructions that mom
handles Carol’s businesses including the money. Mom decided on what
Carol gets. Mom could see that Carol had a wondering eye so she drew
up pages of a “contract” not knowing that she is signing away all her
money to mom or me. So if Carol was to do anything stupid like sleep
with mom’s husband; which she did she will be left penniless. So as we
speak i own everything that was once hers. From her boutiques to her
restaurants. I own all of that. So dad found out and he just wants to take
his daughter somewhere new”
Me: “ Wait so all this time; you not reading the letter you actually had the
power to destroy Carol?” he nodded.
Nqubeko: “ Had i known earlier i would have stopped all the mess that’s
happening now. Why didn’t i do what mom told me Kwazi?” he looked so
sad.
Me: “ It’s not your fault” i kissed his chest and he breathed out loud. I
looked up to him and he was looking down at me. I looked at his dark
grey eyes and he just looked so handsome. I licked my lips and he
bowed his head kissing me. Its been so long since we shared a kiss in
this very bed. One moment we are kissing the next i am on top of him dry
humping him. I was moaning and him groaning until he gently pushed me
back.
Nqubeko: “ You just got home from the hospital. You need to get some
rest” he kissed my nose getting me off him.
Me: “ I need you babe. Please. It’s been so long” i whined causing him to
laugh. He stood up fixing his pants. There was a knock on the door and
he grinned.
Nqubeko: “ Saved by the knock but just to be clear. I am waiting for you
to remove that cast because i plan on fucking you till my dick comes out
of your mouth” i gasped and he chuckled. He wore his t-shirt and pulled
on flops before going to open the door. It was mom and Xoli”
Mom: “ I didn’t know you guys were busy. I could come back later if you
want?”
Nqubeko: “ No mah i was actually going out. You said we are running out
of Nappies and some milk for the house” Xoli just went past him and
came to my bed but she stood next to it.
Mom: “ Yes my boy. That’s all i need for now and butter for baking” he
looked lost before he nodded. I guess he was going to ask wherever he
was going for that butter. As soon as he closed the door Xoli jumped in
bed.
Xoli: “ How are you feeling? Are you okay? You’re not in any pain?” she
was touching me all over. Lifting up my t-shirt.
Me: “I’m okay Xolile. I promise i’m fine”
Mom: “ I have been keeping a close eye on her. Me and Thuli.” She rolled
her eyes causing me to laugh.
Xoli: “ You sure you’re really okay? I am so sorry about what Nqoba did
to you. I am sorry and i hope he doesn’t come back” i gasped in shock.
How can she say that? Nqoba is her fiancé.
Me: “ Hau Xolile how can you say that about your fiancé?”
Xoli: “ No man should do what he did to you. He’s an animal and i will
make sure my baby grows up without him.”
Mom: “ Xolile..” she raised up her hand to silence her but that’s when i
realised that she didn’t know about his condition”
Me: “ He didn’t tell you didn’t he? Where do you think Nqoba is right
now?” she folded her arms looking sideways.
Xoli: “ Obviously in prison” she answered with attitude.
Me: “ actually no. He is at a psychiatric ward” she looked shocked and
her eyes shined with tears immediately.
Xoli: “ What is he doing there? What i wrong with him? Is he crazy?” she
asked with tears rolling down her face.
Me: “ Nqoba has Passive Aggressive Personality and i only found out
because Nqubeko told me. I guess he didn’t want people know about his
condition”
Xoli: “ Will he be okay?” i nearly laughed at that because seconds ago
she didn’t want anything to do with Nqoba but now she is asking if he’ll
be okay.
Me: “ I don’t know. I really don’t know” i said shaking my head.
Mom: “ Well there is some good that came out of this. You are getting
married next week Saturday” she beamed.
Me: “ He told you guys?” they laughed.
Xoli: “ He told us? We are planning the whole thing”
We continued talking and Nqubeko came back. He said he’s going to his
study to do some work. I asked mom for us to move to the lounge area. I
wanted to chill and also bond with my son. As soon as we walked in the
lounge Siphe got excited. He was smiling and very anxious. I took him
and he placed his head on my chest. Aaah i missed him. We had lunch
and i took my meds. After that i fell asleep.
I was woken by mom crying and Nqubeko was shouting. I quickly ran to
the door and got the shock of my life.
Me: “ What the hell are you doing here?” my eyes were all out.
Him: “ I need to talk to you please. It’s important”
Seeing him standing on my door step made me so angry that o wanted to
puke. How could he show his face here; after everything that he said to
me. To us. I understand mom’s anger because he called us bastards
saying that mom’s guts are rotten. Mom went back inside leaving me with
this spineless man.
Me: “ What do you want?” he laughed showing his sparkling white teeth.
If he wasn’t such an ass i would have actually seen that he aged nicely
and he looked so much like Sanele it was actually freaky.
Busani: “ I’m here to see my family. Obviously” he put his hands in his
pockets.
Nqubeko: “ How did you get in here? This is private property” he laughed
again, that evil laugh.
Busani: “ I am the King. They had to open the gate for me” he smirked.
Nqubeko: “ I don’t give a shit who you are. This is MY property and i
suggest you get out of here”
Busani: “ I want to talk to my family” he sounded annoyed.
Me: “ What family Busani? Didn’t you call me and my brother bastards?
After that you called mom a bitch so what family man?” i was shouting
and Nqubeko tried to pull me back inside but i broke free. I wanted him to
explain what he wanted.
Busani: “ Watch how you talk to me. I am still your father” i spat in his
face.
Mom: “ Nokwazi noooo!” she shouted from behind me. I turned and
looked at her.
Me: “ Get him out of here mom. I want him gone. “ i walked back inside
the house and went to the kitchen. I got myself a glass of water. I was
busy pacing up and down. I was really pissed and angry. Nqubeko got in
and he took a seat. He kept quiet and looked at me.
Me: “ He called us bastards you know. He looked at us like we were
some disgusting things. He called us nobodies and now he wants to talk.
Who does he think he is?” he just nodded and looked at me.
Me: “ I mean i understand why mom kept us from him all those years
ago. He didn’t want us. He said she must abort or always be on pill. He
even left her alone to go marry a princess.” He still kept quiet.
Me: “ Mom loved him you know. That’s why she went back to him but he
doesn’t see that. Aaaarrrggg! I am so mad” i screamed. He stood up and
walked to me.
Nqubeko: “ You need to calm down. It’s not good for you baby. You jut got
out of the hospital. You need to rest.” He massaged my shoulders. It felt
really good because my arm was throbbing.
Me: “ I know. Why did he come here? What does he want?”
Nqubeko: “ Well you didn’t give him a chance to say what he wants” i
gave him an ugly look and he chuckled raising up his hands.
Me: “ You think he left? Let me go check” i hurried out the kitchen with
Nqubeko on my heels. I got to the lounge and Simba is sitting down with
mom; having tea. IN MY HOUSE. I stood and looked at them. Mom was
crying and Simba was saying something to her. Suddenly he stood and
knelt in front of her. Haibo.
Me: “ Whoooa Simba wait! Leave my mom alone” i walked to where they
were.
Busani: “ Simba?” mom and Nqubeko laughed.
Me: “ Yes. Lion King” i frowned and went to sit next to mom. She was
laughing through her tears.
Me: “ What did you do to her? Why is she crying?”
Busani: “ I just need a chance to explain. After that i will leave” he
seemed sincere so i looked at Nqubeko and he nodded. He also sat
down and Busani went to take his seat too.
Me: “ This better be good. You have 10 minutes”
Mom: “ Nokwazi Kheswa!” she shouted and i looked at her. I rolled my
eyes. Busani placed 2 fingers on his lips before he spoke.
Busani: “ I never meant to hurt you Londi. I was young and stupid. I never
meant to...”
Me: “ You never meant to fuck her twice and leave her pregnant twice
right?” i interrupted him and Nqubeko chuckled nudging him but Busani
just smiled.
Busani: “ You really are mine. The attitude stinks; just like mine. So as i
was saying before i was rudely interrupted by miss cute here. I was
young and under pressure of succeeding my father. When i met Londi all
i wanted was to be with you but my father wouldn’t allow it. He knew
about the kids but he never told me because he knew i was going to
leave home and come searching for you. When i said all those things at
the hospital i was afraid for you. My father knows that my niece and sister
know about you. He now wants to meet you. I don’t know what his
reasons are but all i want is for you and your brother to be safe” mom
was crying i wanted to slap the emotions out of her.
Me: “ Why are you here?” mom’s eyes shot up and she looked rather
shocked.
Mom: “ Nokwazi please. Could you please stop it?” Nqubeko was silent
and you could see he wanted to burst out in laughter.
Me: “ No mom no. I want to know what the hell is he doing here? Did
Mufasa put you up to this? Did he make you come talk to us before he
dies?”
Busani: “ I understand that you are angry and i would be if i were you but
please try and understand that had no choice. I had to stand by my
parents; my father. He was/is a difficult man”
Me: “ What exactly do you want me to understand? That you suddenly
grew balls? What are we supposed to do now? We’re supposed to
welcome you with open arms? Be a family and have dinner together?
What is it that you want us to do with what you’re saying?” i was now
crying and screaming. Tears and snot. Nqubeko pulled me to him
Busani: “ You don’t have to forgive me but please come and see my
father.”
Me: “ Why? Why should i bother?” i wiped my tears.
Busani: “ He’s dying. He would like to meet you” i stood up and looked at
him.
Me: “ Finish your tea Simba. Go back home and tell you father that i said
No. Tell him i said Rest In Peace” i walked out and went back to my
bedroom. I got in my bedroom and climbed in bed. The door opened and
Nqubeko walked in. He closed the door and locked it. He looked at me
and laughed. He laughed so hard he even had tears falling down his
face. I was really confused as to why was he acting like this.
Nqubeko: “ You are bad ass baby Simba” he laughed again till he felt like
he was running out of air. He then coughed and ran to the bathroom. I
races after him and found him vomiting. I knelt next to him with a glass of
water. He flushed and drank the water. He then looked at me and
laughed again.
Me: “ Arrg you are so juvenile” i stood up and walked to the bedroom.
Nqubeko: “ It’s the circle of life and it moves us all. Through despair and
hope. Through faith and love” he sang that Lion King song and i joined
him laughing.
Nqubeko: “ I’m glad i found you my little Lion” he laughed and then kissed
me.

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Nokwazi
Seeing my friend crying and hurting like that hurt a lot because there was
nothing i could do to ease her pain. We got home and she rushed to the
guest bedroom. Locking herself in. Nqubeko said i should give her space
and i did.
I retired to the bedroom after checking on Siphe. I found Nqubeko on top
of the bed with his laptop. He was only dressed in boxers. I took a quick
shower and wore my silk summer pyjamas. I applied lotion and went to
sit on top of him. He leaned back and sighed.
Nqubeko: “ What a messed up day!” he leaned back bringing my head to
his chest.
Me: “ No scratch that. What a messed up week!” i snuggled closer to him.
Nqubeko smells nice you guys. Even his sweat smells heavenly.
Nqubeko: “ How is Xoli?” i groaned.
Me: “ Your brother is an ass. She is hurting yazi. She is crying. Xoli is the
strong one but now she is so broken”
Nqubeko: “ I will talk to him. He’s going through shit but man he messed
up”
Me: “ Let’s sleep.” I tried getting off but he held me firm.
Nqubeko: “ Sleep on top of me” he moved my pyjama bottoms on the
side.
Me: “ Nqubeko i...” he eased inside. Sweet lord he felt so good. I can
never get over how big and snuggly he is. He moved twice causing me to
moan.
Nqubeko: “ Sleep” his voice was hoarse.
Me: “ How will i sleep with you buried deep inside me like this?” i leaned
to kiss him and he placed a hand behind my neck pulling me to him. I
moaned moving my hips but he pulled back and he chuckled.
Nqubeko: “ Sleep” he shifted causing him to go deeper and i screamed.
Damn him.
I tried closing my eyes but it was difficult until he started drawing patterns
on my back. I started drifting to sleep when i felt Nqubeko push in. I
opened my eyes widely and he flipped me over. He started moving. He
pulled up my pyjama top and got off. He kissed me down my breasts and
placed a kiss on my womanhood before pulling away and pulled it off.
He came back to kneel in between my legs and he entered. I felt his
weight on me as he moved deeper. His rhythm matching mine. I was
breathing his air; it was blissful.
♡♡♡♡♡♡
I woke up the next morning and Nqubeko wasn’t in bed. My whole body
ached as we slept very late due to Nqubeko over sexing me. I sat up the
bed and Nqubeko walked in with a tray and Siphe strapped in front of
him.
They looked so cute because Siphe was only dressed in a short blue vest
and white shocks while Nqubeko wore navy shorts and a white vest. I
took my phone and took pictures of them.
I thought Siphe was asleep but as soon as Nqubeko placed the food on
my lap he woke up. Nqubeko chuckled.
Nqubeko: “ Sneaky boy” he unstrapped him and placed him on the bed
laying on his stomach.
Me: “ Morning baby” he kissed my lips and his hand travelled underneath
the cover. I was naked underneath. He found my womanhood and pulled
away.
Nqubeko: “ I need to eat you” he pouted and i laughed while his fingers
was moving in and out of me.
Me: “ Well you can’t have a taste. Your son is here and he wants my
attention” he groaned and pulled back his fingers. He sniffed them before
sucking on them with his eyes closed.
Nqubeko: “ You smell and taste good. Eat” i ate my breakfast over light
conversation.
Me: “ I was thinking that i’d take Xoli out for a spa day” i said wiggling my
eyebrows. He stood up and took his wallet.
Nqubeko: “ Here” he gave me a black card with my initials and surname.
Me: “ What is this?” i took the card looking at it. It was written “ Private
Wealth” haibo.
Nqubeko: “ It’s yours. I forgot to give it to you on Christmas day” i wanted
to jump to him but i remembered that i was naked.
Me: “ Thank you Thank You Thank You!” i beamed and he smiled. He
took his son and the tray. He walked out leaving me to pull my gown and
got out of bed. I made the bed before going to the bathroom. I opened
the shower before brushing my teeth with warm salted water and
Sensodyne. My teeth had a bleeding problem so i always had to take
care of them first.
After brushing my teeth i got in the shower and started taking a shower.
Nqubeko got in as i was washing off soap.
Nqubeko: “ You started without me” he took the soap from my hands and
started washing me. He washed me so seductively and all over my body.
After he was done i took the soap and returned the favour. We finished
our shower and headed out to the bedroom where Nqubeko had taken
out shorts and an olive body suit with Grey fenty push ins. I looked at him
and shrugged.
Nqubeko: “ Well Xoli is already dressed so i picked your outfit” i stuck out
my tongue to him and he pulled me to him cupping my face. We tongue
kissed and it was so nice i didn’t want to stop until he pushed me off him.
Me: “ Xoli is waiting. Stop kissing me” i walked away leaving him
laughing. He’s the one who kissed me but i didn’t want it to stop. I was so
in love with this guy it wasn’t even funny. After i finished getting dressed i
walked out going to the lounge. I found everyone watching a movie there.
Sanele had friends over so i greeted and we left.
I could see that Xoli wasn’t there but i was going to make her have a
great time. We went to have a spa treatment at Umhlanga. After that we
went shopping. Xoli bought a lot of things and i wasn’t complaining
because she had that beautiful smile on her face so i was happy. After
shopping we retired to News Cafe and we had our lunch.
Xoli: “ It feels like a dream. I mean i thought he loved me. How could he
do that to me?” i reached over the table and held her hand. She was now
crying.
Me: “ I am sorry babe. I really am sorry babe. I don’t know what he was
thinking”
Xoli: “ It would be better if it was one person but it was 2 babe. The other
one was on his face. How could he?!” she shouted and everyone looked
at us. I went to the couch she was seated on and i pulled her in my arms
while she cried.
Xoli: “ Can i stay with you a while longer? I promise i won’t cause any
trouble.”
Me: “ Of course you can stay. When we get home i’ll ask Nqubeko to take
you to our place to gt a change of clothes.” She nodded and we
continued to eat. After eating we went home. When we got home the
guys, including Nqubeko were playing soccer outside on the grass and
they were barefoot. I was seriously drooling over Nqubeko.
Xoli: “ Stop drooling” she giggled and we went inside the house. I felt him
pull me to him.
Nqubeko: “ I missed you wife” he kissed my cheek.
Me: “ Where are the gogos?” i turned around to look at him.
Nqubeko: “ They left with Siphe to Umlazi”
Me: “ Xoli wants you to accompany her to the flat. She needs some
things there”
Nqubeko: “ Okay. We’ll go with the guys” he went to take a quick shower
and they left. Leaving me alone in this big ass house.
I went to take a shower and when i came out Nqoba was seated on top of
the bed. I was startled as to why was he in my bedroom and how did he
get in.
Me: “ Nqoba; what are you doing here?” he smiled and stood up walking
towards me. I stepped back and my back made contact with the wall.
Nqoba: “ You’ve always been beautiful. That is what draws me to you”
he got closer and he was caging me in.
Me: “ Get away from me Nqoba” i was facing the side when he licked my
cheek. That is when i kneed him. I tried running to my phone when he
pulled my leg making me fall. He slapped me so hard i got dizzy. He got
on top of me and took off the towel leaving me naked.
Nqoba: “ You were supposed to be mine!” he tried to kiss me but i bite
him. He lost it. He started hitting me punching me all over. I was starting
to get drowsy. He saw that as an opportunity to take off his pants. I stood
and ran towards the door but he got to me and threw me against the wall.
I felt my arm break but i kept fighting.
I told myself that no matter what, i had to keep fighting. He pulled me to
him by my leg and got on top of me. I felt him rub his manhood on my
nana. I was crying and begging him to stop when i suddenly felt him
being pulled away from me. I opened my swollen eyes and i saw
Nqubeko on top of him. That is when i closed my eyes; letting the
darkness consume me.
Insert 16
Nqubeko
We drove to Xoli’s place but on our way there i was feeling uneasy. On
the way something told me to go back home so i dropped Xoli off before
giving the guys money to go watch a movie and catch Uber back home. I
drove back to my place calling Kwazi but she never answered. Probably
taking a shower. I called miss K asking is if she is home or not but she
told me they are a long way from home.
I was very anxious to go home. When i got there Nqoba’s car was parked
in the drive way. I relaxed a bit because at least Nokwazi is safe but i
quickly rushed into the house when i heard screams.
Me: “ Nokwazi!” i shouted running towards the bedroom. When i got there
Nqoba was on top of a naked Nokwazi. There was blood on her face; she
was fighting him off. His pants were on his knees. Right that moment i
didn’t care that he is my brother. All i wanted to do was kill him. I got him
off her and i started hitting him.
He reeked of alcohol but i didn’t even care. I was beating him up and i
was not going to stop until he was dead but what caught my attention
was that the room was too quiet. When i turned around Nokwazi was
laying there; motionless; naked and bleeding. I stopped hitting him and
rushed to her side. I picked her up and i checked for a pulse. I hit her
cheeks very hard and she moaned. I breathed out in relief.
I took her gown and quickly covered her. I called for help and put her to
bed. Nqoba was laying there groaning. I wish i had killed him; i don’t care
what he is going through. All i care about is my baby. The police and
paramedics arrived and they attended to Nokwazi. Nqoba was sitting on
his butt by the door. They asked what happened.
Officer: “ Can anyone tell me what happened here?” i looked at Nqoba
and kicked his leg causing him to groan.
Me: “ Talk you piece of shit”
Officer: “ Hey back off!” he pushed me off him and i pushed back. I was
about to punch him when one guy came between us.
Guy: “ I’ll take it from here. Mr Msomi; please allow us to do our job” i
gave him a cold look.
Me: “ Do you job then and stop asking me shit. You can see my fiance
was attacked and this asshole attacked her” i kicked his leg again.
The older guy pulled me outside and that is when i saw Nokwazi being
pulled to the ambulance. I ran to it
Me: “ I’m coming with you.” The operator pushed me. I wanted to punch
him so badly.
Me: “ Get your fuckin hands off me you freak. My fiance is hurt. I am
going with her” i turned and looked at the cops all over my house.
Me: “ I better find everything as it was. I will sue your asses if you steal
even a teaspoon” i got in the ambulance and rode in it in silence.
Medic: “ Sir; which hospital are we taking her to?” i was holding on to her
hand, looking at her. That is when i saw how bruised her face was. Her
upper lip was busted, her left eye swollen. She had a cut on her
forehead. I got so angry i wanted to go back and snap Nqoba’s neck.
Me: “ Umhlanga hospital” i know its a bit far but i wanted someone who i
can trust as her Dr and i have a friend who works there. We rode in
silence with me kissing her hand all the way. My phone rang as we were
entering the hospital. It was Miss K.
Me: “ Mah?” i heard Siphe crying in the background.
Miss K: “ Nqubeko; what’s going on? We got home and its crawling with
police, i need hot water for Siphe’s bottle and we are not allowed in” my
son was wailing. It broke my heart.
Me: “ Something bad happened to Nokwazi mah. I am on my way to the
hospital and ...” she didn’t even let me finish.
Miss K: “ What happened to my baby? Where the hell are you Msomi?
You better answer me right now!” the nurses rushed to Nokwazi as she
was wheeled in.
Me: “ We are at Umhlanga hospital. I have to go mama.” I hung up before
she could shout some more. I put my phone in my pocket and followed
behind.
Nurse: “ Sir you need to stay here. We can’t allow you in” i gave her a
bored look.
Me: “ Yazi sisi ubanga iscefe. Ngifuna ukubona umfazi wami (You know
lady you ae being a nuisance. I just want to see my wife)”
Nurse: “ I understand. You will see her when we are done with her. For
now please stay out” i chuckled shaking my head. She turned around and
walked away shaking her flat ass.
I don’t know hey; ever since Nokwazi gave me a chance i don’t get
turned on by anyone but her. You could be wearing your shortest dress
and showing you fresh thighs but my baby’s creamy thighs. I sat down
looking at the magazine. I was trying to distract myself as i was going out
of my mind.
I saw Miss K rush to me an hour later. I stood up meeting her half way.
Behind her was a very worried Xoli and Sanele. Mah Thuli must have
stayed with Siphe. I hugged Miss K and she just cried. I couldn’t even
look at Xoli because she wouldn’t stop crying.
Miss K: “What happened to my baby?” i pulled back and looked at these
people around me. They had no idea that Nqoba is the one who put her
in hospital.
Me: “ What did you find at home? Who was there?”
Miss K: “ Just the police guys. Your bedroom had blood all over it. What
happened?”
Me: “ Erm she was attacked” i cleared my throat and Miss K could see i
was hiding something so she stopped questioning me. I looked at Xoli
and i just felt sorry for her. It was her birthday and now its her best friend.
We saw the Doctor approach and we all stood.
Dr: “ Who N-Khu-bhe-kho here?” that is how he pronounced my name.
Me: “Nqubeko; Nquthu and Nquma. I am Nqubeko” Sanele chuckled.
Dr: “ Excuse me what?” he looked confused.
Me: “ Never mind. What’s happening with Nokwazi?” Sanele just laughed
out loud and he walked away. The Dr frowned.
Dr: “ Okay she is heavily sedated at the moment but she asked for you to
come. She wants to talk to you. It is important”
Miss K: “ Sorry Doc i am her mother. Can i see her first?” he shook his
head.
Dr: “ She asked for N-Khu..yeah. She asked for him and you will see her
afterwards. Sir please follow me..” he walked away and i followed him. I
found my baby drifting to sleep.
Me: “ wife” she smiled faintly.
Me: “ How are you feeling?”
Nokwazi: “ I feel like i survived rape” she giggled and i was rather pissed.
Me: “ Not funny” she groaned in pain after that.
Kwazi: “ Could you keep what happened between us?” she closed her
eyes rubbing on her lip.
Me: “ Why would i do that?” i shouted. She winced.
Kwazi: “ Please. You know Nqoba’s condition and...”
Me: “ Whoooa; had he raped you. Would you have understood? Get out
of here Nokwazi i will not understand shit.”
Kwazi: “ Well he is your brother and you have a record of hurting me. So
don’t you dare” she blew the wind out of me. I stumbled back.
Me: “ You are comparing me to a rapist?” she tried touching my hand but
i backed away.
Kwazi: “ Stop being dramatic Nqubeko. Just keep this between us and
close the door on your way out” i chuckled before walking out the ward i
walked straight outside and went to look for transport home. My heart
ached and i needed to get away from this place. Nokwazi hates me. I
guess i deserve it because i am the one who introduced her to Nqoba. Its
all my fault.
Insert 17
Nokwazi
Can i just say i don’t know why i spoke to Nqubeko that way? He was
trying to be there for me and i blew him off. Thing is i am very confused.
Nqoba has Passive Aggressive Personality and seeing that he is going
through a lot right now i don’t want to add. On the other hand i want him
to get punished but not in the way that Nqubeko wants.
I feel sorry for mostly Nqubeko because he has to be strong for me, for
his brother, for Siphe, for his father; for Xoli. He has to be strong for
everyone. I just don’t want him to hurt anymore. My approach to all that
was bitchy but i was going to deal with it later. Right now i feel dizzy so let
me sleep.
I was woken up by mom shaking me; a banging headache; throbbing
body and an excruciatingly painful arm. I looked at mom and she was
crying. Sanele was standing by the door his hands in his pockets.
Mom: “ Baby. How are you feeling?” i tried sitting up but i ended up
groaning in process.
Mom: “ Easy there.” She helped me sit up and fixed my pillows.
Me: “ Hey mom” she kissed my busted lip and i closed my eyes. Tears
made their way down to my cheeks. I just wanted to let go. I hurt so bad
but the pain inside was worse.
Mom: “ What happened to you?” i looked at Sanele and he nodded
before heading out.
Me: “ Nqoba tried to rape me and Nqubeko got there in time” i sobbed.
She pulled me to her causing me to wince.
Mom: “ so sorry. That’s why Nqoba is in jail. He called Xoli and she went
to him. When i asked Nqubeko he just gave me a faint smile and minded
his son.” I wiped my tears.
Me: “ I didn’t speak nicely to him. I kinda compared them” i looked down
playing with my hands.
Mom: “ Compared who?” she asked backing up.
Me: “ I compared Nqubeko and Nqoba” he hand flew to her mouth.
Mom: “ I did not raise you like that” she was shaking her head.
Me: “ I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to...”
Mom: “ How could you even say that to Nqubeko? I really don’t know why
you’d speak to him like that” i just looked down. When mom starts
shouting at me its best that i keep quiet.
Mom: “ He did you wrong yes but there is no reason for you to rub it in his
face. Hasn’t he shown you how much he loves you?” i was a weeping
mess. I couldn’t even speak so i just nodded
Mom: “ You are going to call him and apologise. Hell this Nqoba guy is
stupid really, how are you going to give Nqubeko a blow job all banged
up like this?” that caused me to laugh and she smiled. She sat down next
to me and kissed my hand.
Mom: “ I’m not being cruel to you but baby men like Nqubeko come once
in a while. Embrace him. Now call him. Now!” she stood up and took her
back.
Me: “ Where are you going now?” she pouted and looked at me.
Mom: “ Police station. I need to kick some fucker. He really messed with
the wrong girl” she turned and walked out. I called out to her but she
didn’t come back. I looked for my phone and it wasn’t there so i buzzed
for a nurse. Instead of a nurse coming; Xoli came in with swollen eyes
and she was crying still.
Xoli: “ I am so sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry!” she cried and fell on her
knees. I wanted to go to her but i just couldn’t get out of bed.
Me: “ It’s okay. Come here” she shook her head holding on to her
stomach.
Xoli: “ My baby. My baby..” she looked like she was in pain.
Me: “ Baby? What baby? You’re pregnant Xolile?” she nodded.
Xoli: “ I found out this morning. I was going to tell you but now...”
Me: “ How did you find out?” she stood up and walked to me.
Xoli: “ He called me telling me to come to the police station. He told me
what he did to you. I didn’t realise it was this bad.” Her eyes roamed
around my body.
Me: “ It’s okay. I’ll be fine.” I closed my eyes and a nurse came in.
Nurse: “ You called me?” i rolled my eyes.
Me: “ I called you a few minutes ago and you’re only coming now?”
Nurse: “ I’m here now so what did you want?” i chuckled and Xoli
snapped.
Xoli: “ Get out of here bitch! Get out and get us someone higher than you.
I seriously hate talking to stupid bitches!” she groaned and i just laughed.
Nurse: “ What the hell? How could you talk to me like that. I...” Xoli
slapped her. Even i was shocked i held my cheek.
Xoli: “ You don’t know me, i don’t know you. If you value your job you’ll
get the fuck out of here” the nurse ran out of the ward.
Me: “ Xolile; that’s no way to behave. Especially now that you are
pregnant” she rolled her eyes.
Xoli: “ I can’t be fighting bitches on every turn” the door opened and
Nqubeko walked in with my weekender bag. He also had plastics of food
on the other hand. He looked yummy i just wanted to eat him up. He
looked tense.
Nqubeko: “ Hello. Hi Xoli” he nodded at her and she smiled.
Xoli: “ Hey bhuti. Bye bhuti” she took her bag and came to hug me. She
left after that.
Nqubeko: “ How are you?” he walked to the cupboard and placed my bag
in there. He took out the fruits and juice from the plastic along with a Spur
plastic.
Nqubeko: “ I got you food. Your pyjamas are in there. If you need
anything, let me know” he kissed my cheek and started walking away.
Me: “ Nqubeko” he turned and looked at me.
Nqubeko: “ Yeah?” he put his hands in his pockets.
Me: “ I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to..” he lifted his hand up.
Nqubeko: “ You’re not sorry. You meant everything you said because
deep down you know you haven’t forgiven me. I noticed how you call me
when i don’t come back home on time; you question my female clients
and ask if i saw Carol when i was home. You meant it. You think i am a
monster and that just broke me because i can now see that you don’t
know how much i love you” he sighed. He looked exhausted. While me
on the other hand i was crying.
Me: “ That’s not true Nqubeko i love you” he nodded.
Nqubeko: “ I love you too. More than life itself but i can’t just stand here
and be happy while you don’t fully trust me so it’s best that i leave you to
think”
Me: “ What do you mean? Are you breaking up with me?” he raised up
his hands in frustration.
Nqubeko: “ Have you been listening to a word i said? I said i love you.
Nokwazi you are wearing my ring. When i asked you to marry me i meant
forever. No other woman can take the space you occupy in my heart. I
love you woman and i am sorry that Nqoba did what he did to you but he
is going to pay.”
Me: “ Can we talk about Nqoba when i leave here. Right now j want to
know what you mean by your talk?”
Nqubeko: “ I love you. I will give you space to think about what you really
want. If you want to move on with me then fine but be sure to know that
we will leave every bad thing behind. We will leave it here in this room
but if you don’t trust me enough to hold you heart fully then it’s okay. I
won’t hold it against you but what i don’t want is for you to remind me that
i broke you heart. If you forgive me the forgive me and let us move on. If
you don’t forgive me that’s also fine. At least i’ll know where i stand. For
now i will leave you to think about everything. I love you” tears were
gushing downy cheeks and they wouldn’t stop.
Me: “ Please don’t leave me. I want to be with you. I love you” he kissed
me. The kiss was short and i wanted more.
Nqubeko: “ I am not leaving you. I am going home to our son. I am giving
you time to think because if after tomorrow you still want us nc nc baby
you better forgiven me fully because i will fuck you up so badly you’ll end
up with 7 children by the time you reach 30” i giggled and he smiled.
Me: “ Okay. Go home. I don’t want to be pregnant. Siphe is barely 3
months old.” He chuckled.
Nqubeko: “ I don’t mean now phela but think about what i said okay?” i
nodded and he kissed me again. This time the kiss was deep and yummy
i wanted to lay on my back and let him have me. We heard someone
clearing their throat. We turned to look and it was Sanele with Denise.
Denise was carrying flowers.
Nqubeko: “ Let me get going. I love you and if you decide on staying with
me i will wife you on your birthday.” My eyes shot up.
Me: “ But my birthday is in 2 weeks” he winked and walked to the door.
The hell? Nqubeko was giving me 2 weeks to plan our wedding? That’s
just insane and sweet. As sweet as that was we still had to deal with the
Nqoba issue. Honestly speaking Nqoba hurt a lot of people but that
doesn’t mean we should leave him out in the cold. He needed his family
and we are his family.

Insert 13

Nokwazi
It was now time to exchange gifts. Yeey! My favourite. We gathered
around the tree and placed throws for us to sit in. Siphe was dirty from all
the chocolate cake that mom and his father gave him. I kept telling them
that they shouldn’t give him any solids but did they listen, no.
We all sat down on the throws/blankets that were placed on the grass.
1st up was mom as usual. She stood up and took out the gifts that she
bought for all of us. I felt bad for Denise because I didn’t get her anything.
Well no one got her anything. Except for Sanele of course.
Mom: “ Okay kids. Gifts time!” she clapped her hands excitedly. I giggled.
I sat cross legged next to Nqubeko and my skirt inched a bit higher. He
placed a hand on my thigh and it travelled up. I looked around to see if
anyone was looking and I saw Nqoba look away quickly. Weird.
Mom: “ First up is My beautiful boy, come baby” Sanele stood and walked
over to mom. She gave him his gift and sat down. Sanele was the only
one standing and he opened his gift; before we could even see what was
inside he threw it on the floor and started jumping around. He went to
mom and hugged her tight. I was anxious; I wanted to see what he got.
Mom was laughing and wiping her tears. She was happy that Sanele was
that happy.
Me: “ What did you get?!” I wanted to stand but Nqubeko pulled me
down.
Nqubeko: “ Sit” I giggled. He finally opened and he got a PS4 with
combat and car games. He has always wanted it but mom never had
enough money to buy it.
We proceeded with the gifts and I got a watch from Xoli; Shoes and a
bag from mom and a gift voucher from Nqoba.
Hehe I went to the house and got a pair of shoes that I bought and gave
them to Denise. They dent my account but seeing the look on her face
when I gave her the box was worth it. Nqubeko gave me a watch *rolls
eyes* he said I should wear it and start counting. I don’t even want to
know what he meant.
The dishes were washed and we were just chilling outside eating home
made fried chicken aka KFC. The door bell rang and Mam Thuli stood up
to go get it but Sanele quickly ran to open. Telling her to relax because
it’s Christmas. Xoli and mom were slowly getting drunk and Nqoba kept
stealing glances at me. It was so weird.
Sanele came back followed by Mr Msomi carrying a baby with Carol right
behind him. I saw Nqubeko’s face change. He stood up and I was right
next to him. Nqoba also came and held his arm.
Mr Msomi: “ Hello everyone and Merry Christmas” he smiled nervously.
Nqubeko: “ What are you doing here dad?” he looked pissed.
Mr Msomi: “ It’s Christmas and we always spend it together so I thought
we’d come”
Nqubeko: “ You came with her, today of all days” he spat.
Nqoba: “ Please bro. Let them be. Mom would have wanted us together”
Carol chuckled and Nqubeko charged for her but I stood in front of him.
Me: “ She is not worth it” I touched his chest looking up to him. He looked
at me and gave me a faint smile.
Nqubeko: “ One mistake Carol and I will fuck you up!” mam Thuli took
baby Naledi and placed her next to Siphe. Carol went and set down
leaving the brothers with their dad. Mr Msomi first hugged Nqubeko and
he was so cold I wanted to punch him. It was Christmas and his father
was here. Mr Msomi went on to hug Nqoba and the hug was long. He
kept kissing Nqoba’s head telling him he loves him. They finally pulled
apart highly emotional.
Me: “ Okay. Let me fix you guys a plate” Mr Msomi beamed.
Mr Msomi: “ With lots of chicken” I giggled. .
Carol: “ Keep your food. I don’t want to gain weight” Nqubeko huffed and
went inside the house. I followed him. I found him in the kitchen and he
was pacing.
Me: “Calm down babe” he sighed before pulling me in to his arms.
Nqubeko: “ Carol better not try starting shit. I will kill her baby. I swear”
this guy had his arms around my neck and I had to stand on toes. He
was just too tall I ended up getting tired.
Me: “ You think she will tell?” he pulled back like he remembered
something.
Nqubeko: “ The letter! I never got to read the letter!”
Me: “ Where is it?” I went to take out a plate for dishing up.
Nqubeko: “ It’s in my safe at home. Will go get it tomorrow. I hope Carol
behaves because I will fuck her up. Trust me” I hugged him from behind
because he was looking out the window.
Me: “ You need to relax and enjoy Christmas daddy” he chuckled and
turned around. He kissed my chin.
Nqubeko: “ I love you. Don’t stop counting” I frowned.
Me: “ What does that even mean?” he kissed my lips before leaving the
kitchen. I dished up for Mr Msomi; I placed everything on a tray and
walked out. I was welcomed by mom’s excited screams I nearly dropped
the tray. I rushed to her and she was jumping up and down hugging
Nqubeko. I gave Mr Msomi his food and he thanked me.
Me: “ What’s going on?” I asked rushing to mom but she was now crying.
Mom: “ Thank you God! Oh Thank You!” he was kneeling and I was very
confused at to what happened.
Sanele: “ Thank you bhuti” he was crying and hugging Nqubeko after that
he went and hugged Denise.
Me: “ Will somebody tell me what is going on?!” Nqoba chuckled.
Xoli: “ Nqubeko bought them a house! A house in Rose Hill” I was beyond
shocked I mean who does that.
Me: “ Huh?” I looked at him and he shrugged his shoulders.
The festivities continued. I was just too shocked to comment but as soon
as my head is in the right place I was going to talk to him about it. The
sun was now setting; mom and Xoli were now heavily drunk with Carol
right behind them. Baby Naledi and Siphe were in the house with mam
Thuli. Nqubeko suddenly stood and sat next to me.
Nqubeko: “ Have you been counting?” I shook my head no looking at my
watch.
Me: “ I don’t even know what I was counting” he took my hand in his.
Nqubeko: “ I was giving you time to count the hours before I clam my
stake” I laughed.
Me: “ What are you talking about?” all this time he was playing with my
fingers and I heard him pull up something on my ring finger. It was a
bloody huge rock. Everyone stood and gathered around us.
Nqubeko: “ Give me a chance to love you for the rest of our lives. You
have awaken some parts of me that I never knew I had. All I want now is
that I make you mine forever and just let me love you because that is
what I live for. Loving you and being a good dad to our daughter.” I was a
weeping mess and Xoli was sobbing.
Me: “ What exactly are you saying to me?” he knelt in front of me.
Nqubeko: “ I am not telling you my love. I am asking you to Marry me on
this Merry Christmas” I giggled while he wiped my tears.
Me: “ I will marry you on this Merry Christmas” everyone cheered and
clapped.
Carol clapped longer than anyone and she was kaak drunk.
Carol: “ Well well well. The brothers are getting married. They are going
to start their families now but Nqoba you can’t just get married without
knowing your family” shit!
Mr Msomi: “ It’s time to leave now Carol. Come” Nqoba rushed to her and
held her arm.
Nqoba: “ What did you just say?” he looked confused yet angry.
Carol: “ Oops! My bad. I didn’t mean to say that” she laughed and Nqoba
slapped her.
Nqubeko: “ Nqoba No!”
Xoli: “ Nqoba!” she screamed.
Carol: “ You think hitting me will make you a man? No it won’t. It will just
make you more of this useless thing that you are. No wonder you are like
this. Your mother must have resented you. I would too if I was her”
Nqubeko: “ Carol shut the fuck up!” he walked to her but Nqoba had
already placed her hand on her throat.
Nqoba: “ Talk bitch!”
Carol: “ You are pathetic Nqoba. Just like your rapist father” Nqoba let her
go and stepped back while Nqubeko fell on his knees.
Nqoba: “ What do you mean?” he said that in an almost whisper.
Carol: “ Mommy didn’t tell you? Mommy was raped and you came along.
You are a fucking rape product you stupid ass!” I looked at Nqubeko and
he was crying loudly his shoulders shaking. Mr Msomi was also a mess
while Nqoba zoned out completely. What a way to end Christmas.
Insert 14
Nqubeko
I have been dreading this day. Hiding this secret was something I wanted
to take with me to the grave but Carol decided to ruin my first Christmas
with my family. The reason why we kept it from him is because Nqoba
has anger issues. He will just go self disrupt and that is not a good thing.
I was kneeling on the floor when I heard a scream. Nqoba was on top of
Carol strangling her. As much as I wanted him to kill her but I couldn’t let
that happen. Nokwazi was trying to get him off but he just pushed her. I
rushed to him and pulled him off Carol. I pushed him back and Carol got
up coughing and crying.
Carol: “ You idiot! I am going to sue your ass” she said rubbing her neck.
Nqoba: “ Shut up bitch before I kill you!” he shouted and he had turned
pink.
Me: “ Nqoba man you need to calm down” he turned and looked at me.
He looked so angry but I just didn’t care. He can huff all he wants but I
will beat up his ass if he tries and gives me shit.
Nqoba: “ Don’t tell me to calm down! Don’t fuckin tell me to calm down!”
he roared. He was even pacing and sweating.
Me: “ Dad; it was lovely seeing you but you guys have to leave. Take
Carol and Go!” dad stood up but Nqoba rushed to him and stood in front
of him.
Nqoba: “ Not so fast. You will tell me what this bitch is talking about!” he
was screaming and pointing at Carol who had not stopped crying. I
wanted to slap her. Nokwazi shame was sitting in a chair looking at the
floor. Xoli and Miss Kheswa were now sober. Sanele and Denise
disappeared in the house.
Dad: “ Nqoba son. Now is not the time. Let it go son” he said in a very
low voice. He looked defeated.
Nqoba: “ Now is the time. Tell me what she meant!” he was going crazy.
Dad just looked down shaking his head. Nqoba turned and looked at me.
Nqoba: “ Nqubeko….Bro….is it true?” I looked at Nokwazi and she was
crying. I looked at Nqoba again and my heart broke. He was breathing
fast. The look on his face had desperation all over it. He really wanted
this to be just a joke. He was hoping it’s not true. I just shook my head.
Me: “ I’m sorry” I was trying so hard not to break down.
Nqoba: “ I am a rape victim? Mom was raped and she had me? I am a
bastard!” he was now crying.
Dad: “ Don’t say that. You are my son. My beautiful boy. You are mine
Nqobani and I love you”
Nqoba: “ No dad. I am not yours. I am a bastard that was forcefully
dumped in mom’s stomach”
Dad: “ You are my son! Don’t talk like that”
Xoli: “ Baby; you need to calm down!” she tried to touch his arm but he
yanked it.
Nqoba: “ Don’t touch me Xolile.”
Me: “ Nqoba bro. You need to calm down. Please calm down”
Nqoba: “ Ey voetsek Nqubeko. You knew all this time. You knew that I am
not a Msomi but you kept it to yourself. I am sure you were busy
laughing. Stupid Nqoba; he doesn’t know that he is a rape victim!”
Me: “ Don’t you dare. Don’t you fuckin dare. I lost Nokwazi because of tis
fuckin secret. I had to sacrifice being with her to almost marry Carol
because I was protecting you and now you are turning this on me. Fuck
man!”
Kwazi: “ Baby no. Calm down please” I shook my head. I didn’t mean to
have that outburst. I was also hurting.
Dad: “ We need to sit and talk about this”
Nqoba: “ There is nothing to talk about because right now all I want to
know is who is my father and where is he”
Dad: “ Son please you are my son and…” Nqoba lifted up his hand to
silence dad.
Nqoba: “ Dad please. Stop lying to me. Tell me the truth”
Carol: “ Please tell him about his father. I am tired of all the dramatics. If
we could just…”
She was silenced by a very loud slap from Xoli. It was so loud even my
cheek hurt
Xoli: “ I don’t know why you’re still here. If you could kindly take your flat
behind and leave this family in peace”
Carol: “ Oh please orphan. What do you know about family? You have no
one. That is why you saw it best that you tried your luck with Nqoba
because parents left you broke and cold. Such a gold digger”
Me: “ How the fuck do you know all that?’ she looked shocked after
saying all of that and me questioning her
Xoli: “ Yes; how did you know?” she squinted her eyes.
Nqoba: “ I don’t even care what Carol says about who but all I want to
know is what happened to mom. Please you owe me that much.”
Dad: “ Sit. I will tell you” he motioned for Nqoba to sit on a chair.
Me: “ Dad don’t..” he lifted up his hand.
Dad: “ When I met your mother she was the most beautiful woman and
you could see even when you guys were growing up that she was very
beautiful. We met in college. I was doing my final year and she was on
her 2nd. We met and we hit it off. I was her first in everything. When the
time came for school to close I took her home with me and there she met
my family. The way my father was so impressed it was funny. I didn’t
notice or realise that my big brother was lusting over her. “ he wiped his
tears before taking a deep breath. Nokwazi had gone inside to get him a
glass of water.
Dad: “ So time passed; your mother and I were very much in love. I
finished school and stared working. I got my own place and things were
going accordingly. Your mother fell pregnant with Nqubeko. I had to marry
her and I was planning to marry her anyways. We got married, had our
first son and got a house. 2 years later I had a meeting to get to and left
the house in a hurry. Your mother was asleep due to Nqubeko keeping
her up all night. Lindani got in and he slept with my wife. At first she
thought it was me until he started getting rough. That is when she turned
and he started hitting her because she was fighting him off. He raped and
brutally beat her up. I came home that dad to a crying Nqubeko and
Cortney in a pool of blood. We searched for Lindani and he was arrested.
Three months later your mom got sick; we went to the hospital and she
was pregnant with you.” .
Nqoba: “ How do you know that I am his and not yours?”
Dad: “ That is because your mother and I were not sexually active.
Before the rape I was busy and after the rape we didn’t sleep together
because of the trauma but you are mine Nqobani. You are my
conqueror.”
Nqoba shook his hand a couple of time before shaking his head .
Nqoba: “ Where is he now? This Lindani guy”
Dad: “ He is in prison. He is about to be released. He has been hounding
me. He said he wants to meet you because our cousin went to tell him
that you were conceived.” Nqoba stood up and took his car keys. I stood
in front of him.
Me: “ Where are you going?”
Nqoba: “ I am going out. I need air. This rape product/ bastard needs
some air”
Xoli: “ Baby i..” he lifted his head.
Nqoba: “ Not now Xolile” he sighed and left. I wanted to go after him but
when I looked at dad crying I went to him and knelt in front of him.
Dad: “ I failed him. I failed my son” he was sobbing. In all the years I have
never seen dad cry that much. I pulled dad in for a hug, I was also
blinded by my own tears. Mom; why did you leave? Lord knows how
much I need you right now. How much WE need you.
Xoli
I saw how broken Nqoba was and it was rather very hard to be there for
him because he wouldn’t allow me to be there for him. Its been three
days and he wasn’t reachable. I have been to his place, work and even
called around his friends but I just couldn’t find him.
These last few days have been hectic and worse part is that today is my
birthday. I woke up to Nokwazi’s call singing me happy birthday with
Nqubeko. We had planned that we would go to the Durban Jazz festival
that was 2 days ago but we couldn’t as Nqoba was MIA.
After that phone call with Kwazi I took a shower and ate breakfast. Its
very strange how much I eat these days. After eating I cleaned around
the flat and took a shower. After my shower I got dressed in jeans and a
lose top with sneakers. I took my things and headed for the door but was
welcomed by this guy holding flowers.
Delivery guy: “ Miss Xoli Ntuli?” I raised my eyebrows.
Me: “ That’s me.” He gave me the box of roses.
D.Guy: “ Please sign here” he gave me that board to sign on and he left. I
closed the door and opened the card. Its read : “ Happy Birthday my
gorgeous girlfriend” it was from Nqoba. I wanted to cry. Where was he? I
placed the roses inside the fridge and left.
I drove straight to the cemetery. Ever since my parents died I spend my
birthday mornings cleaning up their graves. I got to the cemetery after
passing by the florist and bought flowers. I got out the car and walked to
where their graves were. I started cleaning; I had my bottled water since
it was hot. I cleaned and after cleaning I went back to my car and
changed my shoes. I took the picnic basket and went to sit in between
my parents graves. I poured myself juice and sighed.
Me: “ I miss you mom. I feel alone sometimes. Nokwazi has her own
family now and my boyfriend is missing. It’s my birthday today but I just
feel like crying and screaming. It hurts dad; I want you guys here with
me.” I spoke to them for hours crying. After getting sun burnt I finally took
my things and left.
I was very emotional because this was the one day I felt alone since my
parents died. I finally got to my place. I got in and took a shower. I spent
a long time in the shower reflecting on my life and crying. After the
shower I put on Nqoba’s t-shirt and retired to the lounge with a glass of
wine. I ordered pizza and watched movies.
I love action movies so I settled for Tears of the sun. My pizza arrived and
I had my food with wine and a nice movie. The bell rang as I was on my
last piece of pizza; you see I eat a lot these days. I went to open the door
and opened. Nokwazi was on the other side with Nqubeko. They started
singing. I giggled.
Nokwazi: “ Happy Birthday to you *kiss* Happy Birthday to you *kiss*
Nqubeko: “ Happy Birthday makoti wethu. Happy Birthday to you” I
laughed clapping like a little girl. I moved out of the way and they got in.
They had cake and goodies with them. I was so happy; they have just
lifted up my spirits.
Nokwazi: “ We bought goodies but looking at you now it was a mistake”
they looked at each other nodding.
Me: “ What are you talking about?”
Nqubeko: “ You should change because we are going out for a birthday
dinner”
Me: “ Really?” I was excited. At least someone cares. I didn’t eve wait for
them to confirm I ran to my bedroom. Now you’re probably wondering
hoe Nqubeko and I get along. Well truth is I only get jolly around him
when Nokwazi is there because Nqubeko is very tense. He hardly laughs
but when Nokwazi and Siphe.
I wore my mini dress with cream heels. I applied minimum make up and
we left. We went to Greedy Buddha in Gateway. When we got there there
was a table ready for us and the family was there. By family I mean Mam
Thuli: Sanele and Mam Londi. Nqoba and Denise were not there. I felt a
bit sad but I quickly removed those thoughts.
I hugged everyone and we sat down. Conversation was flowing. I had
one too many glasses of wine. I was laughing non stop.
Nqubeko: “ Can we talk Xoli?” he asked standing up. I tensed up
immediately. I mean this guys hardly speaks but now he wants to
privately talk to me. I looked at Nokwazi and she nodded smiling. I stood
up and followed him. I found him standing by the balcony with his hands
in his pockets. I cleared my throat and he just stood there. I went to stand
quietly next to him.
Nqubeko: “ How are you Xoli?” he wasn’t even looking at me. My insides
were shaking.
Me: “ I’m okay” he nodded and turned to look at me. He was so tall.
Nqubeko: “ I am sorry about your parents and Happy Birthday” why did
he mention my parents.
Nqubeko: “ I took another look into your parents affairs and it turns out
they left a trust for you. The trust has someone controlling it and they
take money out of it once a year. They take a lump sum because the
money accumulates every month because they made this trust to be self
invested. “
Me: “ What are you talking about?” I was confused what the hell is this
guy talking about?!
Nqubeko: “ You my dear are a millionaire, your uncle. Your mother’s
brother used to take care of your parents money. When they died he
managed to pull some strings so that you’d walk away without a cent. So
I called you out here to ask you what is it that you want me to do with this
information?”
Me: “ What can you do?” I asked leaning on the rails.
Nqubeko: “ Just say the word. I will make it happen.”
Me: “ Why are you helping me?” he looked at me and chuckled.
Nqubeko: “ My fiance loves you. You are her sister and I have to make
her happy plus you are my brother’s fiance as well” I rolled my eyes.
Me: “ Some fiance I am. I don’t even know where he is”
Nqubeko: “ It’s okay. I will let you know when he gets home. So can I do
something about your money?” I nodded.
Me: “ Please do” he pulled me in for a hug and he smelled so good but
nope. The guy is too tall and too intense.
We went back inside and enjoyed our dinner. I got tons of gifts from
everyone. I even got some diamond earrings from Siphe. Rich parents
kids. He’s not even 6 months old but he is already giving out expensive
gifts. The dinner finally ended and we left. Nqubeko drove to Nqoba’s
place and parked outside.
Nqubeko: “ Go; he’s home. We will wait for you here” it was Nqubeko and
Kwazi. The rest had gone home.
I hurried out of the car not waiting for them. I got in and the door was
opened. The lounge had bottles of beer, wine glasses and pizza boxes. It
was so dirty but all I wanted was to see Nqoba. I rushed to his bedroom
and as I neared I heard moans; sex sounds.
I regret opening that door because what I saw is something I will never
forget. Nqoba was laying flat on the bed; one girl was riding his dick and
the other girl was riding his face. At least he was wearing protection but
the girl was rubbing herself all over his face. I just froze on the spot until I
heard on of the girls say “ Want to join us?” that is when Nqoba sprung
up. He looked shocked.
Nqoba: “ Xoli..” the girl rode him hard and he didn’t even bother getting
her off him. I saw his eyes roll back that is when I ran out of the room and
I heard him growl. I ran outside and got in the car crying.
Nokwazi: “ What happened?”
Nqubeko: “ Did he hit you?” I shook my head.
Me: “Can we go please?” Nqoba came out running. He came to the car
and tried opening the doors but Nqubeko locked the door
Nqubeko: “ What do you want me to do?” Nqoba was busy knocking on
the windows and punching the windows.
Me: “ Let’s leave please” he nodded and started the car with Nqoba all
over the car. He stood in front of the car saying that he wants me to come
out. I am his and I have to come out. Nqubeko ran him over just a little
because he dove.
Nokwazi: “ Are you crazy?!” she shouted at him as we drove out. I really
didn’t care. I just wanted to go home; curl up in bed and sleep.

Insert 11

Nqubeko
The following day i woke up from the guest house that i booked in. Nqoba
and Xoli disappeared yesterday. Turns out they were banging each other
all day. So i got off the bed and took a quick shower after the shower i
dressed in cream chino shorts and a light orange H&B round neck t-shirt
and black sneakers. I wore my black cap and took my things. I went and
checked out. I headed to the hospital after going past the mall to get
Nokwazi some clothes.
I got to the hospital and went straight to her ward. I found her in bed with
her bags packed. She was wearing a gown and looked like she was
ready to leave. I walked over to her and kissed her.
Me: “ Morning” she smiled.
Kwazi: “ Morning. I am waiting for mom with my clothes” i gave her the
plastic and then took my son. She frowned.
Me: “ Your mom told me you need clothes so i bought you clothes” she
took the packet and got off the bed. She walked to the bathroom and left
me with my son. I looked at him; he was sleeping. He had to be the most
beautiful baby ever. He had curly hair and it was longer than it should be.
He smelled nice and baby. The door creaked open and her mom walked
in.
K’s Mom: “ Morning Nomndayi” i chuckled.
Me: “ Morning Mah. How are you?” she nodded.
K’s mom: “ Where is she?” she was referring to Kwazi.
Me: “ She went to get dressed.” She nodded again.
K’s mon: “ Nqubeko i meant what i said last night about the damages.” I
nodded.
Me: “ I understand mah. It’s not even enough; after the way i hurt
Nokwazi it’s the least i could do”
K’s mom: “ I wanted to talk to you about something: You know i live in a 2
bedroom house and it is not that fancy. Siphe cannot live in that flat in
town so i think that Nokwazi and Siphe should move in with you for time
being. If that won’t be an issue for you”
Me: “ Of course not mama. I would love it if they moved in with me. I
already have Siphe’s room ready. I had someone buy his things and sent
them to my house. I called this morning and she said the room is ready”
K’s mom: “ Let’s hope Kwazi will agree. She needs to be in an
environment where she can move around freely and your house is
ridiculously huge”
Me: “ It’s not child friendly mah. I don’t want to force Kwazi into being in a
relationship with me. Lord knows she suffered and she was all alone
these last 8 months so they will move in with me for time being. I will look
for a house for them and if she wants to leave she can.”
K’s mom: “ You really love her don’t you?” i chuckled.
Me: “ More than words” she giggled.
K’s mom: “ Well you have to work hard to get her back”
Me: “ I will work very hard to do so”
The bathroom door opened and Nokwazi stepped out. Damn. She was
so beautiful. I got her a body hugging knee length grey dress and
sneakers. She wears a size 4. Cute. She smiled when she saw her mom.
How i wish she could smile at me like that.
Kwazi: “ Hey mom” she walked slowly to her and they baby kissed.
Me: “ I have already signed the papers when i came here. Let us go” i
had Siphe in my arms. I covered him in his blanket and we walked out.
Sanele was outside waiting for us. As soon as he saw us he walked to us
and took the bags from his sister and mom.
We walked towards the car and i opened it. I placed the seat in the
middle and strapped him in. Kwazi and Sanele got in at the back. Miss
Kheswa got in front. I drove out of the hospital and headed to Durban.
Nokwazi: “ I thought we were going to start at the guesthouse i was
staying at”
Me: “ Simo took your bags back to Durban” she nodded and i continued
driving.
My phone rang and it was connected to the car speaker. It was Nqoba
calling. I answered.
Me: “ Nomndayi” he clicked his tongue.
Nqoba: “ Nomndayi my ass. We are at the hospital and you big head isn’t
here. They said you took your family. Where are you?” i chuckled.
Me: “ I am driving to Durban. Freeway right now”
Nqoba: “ You’re a pussy. Why didn’t you...” i cut him off because i knew
that he was about to start cussing one way
Me: “ Dude there are people in the car. They can hear you”
K’s Mom: “ Hello Nqoba” he chuckled nervously.
Nqoba: “ Hey Miss K. I will get you for this Nqubeko. Later!” he hung up
and i chuckled shaking my head. We drove past a garage and i asked if
they needed anything and they said no. Only Sanele was hungry. We got
our the car and went to buy him food. He bought 2 King steer meals
saying one is for the road. He ate and took the other one with him.
We finally arrived in Durban and i drove straight to Umlazi. I got to
Nokwazi’s house and she got off with her mom. They unloaded the
groceries that we bought along the way. I thought she was also staying
but noo. We took Siphe in and we stayed for a few hours. When it started
getting dark we also bid them farewell. I had a talk with her mother before
leaving.
K’s mom: “ I spoke to her about staying with you plus Thuli is there to
help her but i will come when i am off from work.”
Me: “ Thank you for this”
K’s mon: “ You better treat her good or else i will kill you with my bare
hands.”
Me: “ I won’t. I promise” i shook her hand and walked to the car. Nokwazi
was breastfeeding Siphe. He looked so adorable. I waited till she was
finished before driving to my house.
Nokwazi: “ You sure it’s okay if we stay with you?” i nodded. She was
seated at the back with her son.
Me: “ More than okay. I am happy. I get to seduce you” she looked
shocked but i wasn’t joking. I really did want her in my life and i was
going to do whatever it takes to have her in my life after that i will make
her my wife.
It’s been 2 months since Siphe’s birth. Nqubeko has been nothing but a
wonderful dad to his son and me. Always showering us with gifts but he
also has been torturing me. He would go around in his pants only. Did i
tell you that he has nice hands and feet? Yes; he is sexy. Even when he
watches tv and when he is holding his son. I love him. I really do and i am
ready to give him a chance. Its the 24th December. Festive season and
well my favourite time of the year.
Woke up and went to check on Siphe. I found him with his father; damn it
Nqubeko. He was dressed in boxers only. He turned around when i
walked in. He smiled and walked over to me. He kissed my forehead and
greeted.
Nqubeko: “ Morning” his voice was so deep my whole body vibrated.
Me: “ Morning.” I cleared my throat.
Nqubeko: “ You slept okay?” i nodded.
Me: “ Yes. I slept well. Thank you for staying up with him last night. I was
exhausted” i slept very late because i was wrapping gifts for everyone.
Christmas Lunch was going to be held at Nqubeko’s place because
Nqoba has a bachelor house and we can’t go to his parents house
because his father lives with Carol and their daughter.
Nqubeko: “ He’s my son too. So i had to take care of him. He just slept
now and i gave him a very warm bath. He will wake up around 11am.
Have you eaten?”
Me: “ Nope i haven’t. I need to shower first” i walked out the door with
him following me.
Nqubeko: “ Can i join you?” i coughed because it was so unexpected.
Me: “ You erm want to join me?” i spoke very fast and he laughed. He
walked to me and kissed me senseless. He pulled me closer to him and i
was even grinding my body. I moaned and we heard someone clearing
their throat. We both jumped and looked at mom.
Mom: “ We know its your house but go have sex somewhere else please.
Plus it’s too early in the morning to be watching live porn”
Me: “ Mom! We were not having sex!” Nqubeko was holding in a laugh.
Mom: “ Could have fooled me. All that dry humpimg...” she walked past
us to the kitchen. The minute she disappeared Nqubeko laugher out loud.
I was very embarrassed.
Me: “ Why are you laughing? Mom is impossible!” she arrived 2 days ago
because of the Christmas lunch. I needed all the help i could get. Xoli
was away on holiday with Nqoba. They were coming back tonight.
Christmas is a big deal to the Msomi’s.
We went to Nqubeko’s bedroom and he led me to his bed. I looked at
him. It was already made.
Nqubeko: “ Get in” i looked at him as though he was crazy.
Me: “ Thought we were going to breakfast”
Nqubeko: “ Yes but i want to talk to you first. Please” i sighed and got in
bed. He joined me.
Me: “ What do you want to talk about?”
Nqubeko: “ I want to make love to you” my breath caught and i just
looked at him.
Nqubeko: “ I want to make love to you so bad. I want to taste you all over.
I want to drink in your sweet juices. I want you to scream my name” he
said that running his hands all over my body.
Me: “ Make love to me then” he kissed the corner of my mouth.
Nqubeko: “ I will make love to you as soon as you agree to be my
girlfriend” i giggled and he kept a straight face. I looked at him and saw
that he was serious.
Me: “ Fine. I will be your girlfriend. I am your girlfriend now. Make love to
me” he kissed me deeply fisting his hand in my hair. He got in between
my legs. I was dressed in a night dress and very thin lace thong only. His
guy was direct on my nana. The moment we touched i gasped. He kissed
me grinding his man. I was so turned on when he suddenly pulled back
and got off the bed.
Me: “ What, where are you going?” he chuckled and walked to his closet.
He came back dressed in shorts and a black vest.
Nqubeko: “ I am famished. Let’s go have breakfast” i wanted to cry. Its
been so long. I needed some servicing.
Me: “ Are you really thinking about food right now?”
Nqubeko: “ Yes my baby. Come my love” he held out his hand and i
slapped it.
Me: “ Go have your stupid breakfast alone.” I pulled the cover over my
head and ignored his laughing ass. He pulled back the covers roughly
and pulled me by my legs to the edge of the bed. The look on his face
had changed. You could see that he meant business. He licked his lips
and slowly started to undress....
Insert 12
Christmas day came and the house was buzzing. Nqoba and Xoli arrived
last night and they were drunk. Mom and i stayed up all night preparing
for the next day. When i got to bed last night Nqubeko came to fetch me
and we finished where we left things off earlier.
I woke up and he was next to me awake. He was looking at his phone
and emotions running all over his face. I sat up and placed my head on
his chest. He put his phone aside and held me. He sighed deeply.
Me: “ Talk to me” he kissed my forehead.
Nqubeko: “ It’s my first Christmas without mom” i placed a kiss on his
chest and the turned to straddle him.
Me: “ We should go visit her grace with Siphe” he nodded before closing
his eyes.
Nqubeko: “ I would like that very much. Thank you” i placed my head ln
his chest and we sat there in silence.
Me: “ You’ll never tell Nqoba about what happened?” he shook his head
no.
Nqubeko: “ No babe i can’t. It would destroy him. I am just glad i got you
to talk to” he smiled.
Me: “ Let’s get out of bed and shower. We have a long day ahead of us”
We got out of bed and took a shower. Innocent shower after the shower
we got out and got dressed in matching black and green outfits.
Nqubeko: “ We look ridiculous my love” i laughed.
Me: “ It was your idea Mangamehle” he blushed. He always blushes
when i call him that.
Nqubeko: “ Come here” i walked to him and he hugged me tight.
Nqubeko: “ Thank you for being here; with me. For giving me a second
chance” he placed a kiss on my nose and we pulled apart.
Me: “ Let’s get going” i pulled him towards the door but he pulled me
back.
Nqubeko: “ Merry Christmas” i giggled like a school girl. He does that to
me.
Me: “ Merry Christmas baby”
We walked out hand in hand. We started at Siphe’s bedroom and he
wasn’t there so we went to the kitchen and we found everyone there.
Xoli: “ The power couple” she giggled before attacking me with a hug. We
pulled apart and looked at each other. No one said a word; our souls did
the talking. I saw tears fall down her face. I smiled and wiped them.
Me: “ You are my family” she pulled me in for a tight hug.
Xoli: “ I love you and Merry Christmas” she kissed my cheek and went
back to sit next to Nqoba. He pulled her to him and kissed her forehead.
Me: “ Merry Christmas everyone”
Mom came from outside carrying a nicely dressed but sleeping Siphe. I
walked to them and took him.
Mom: “ I have everything set up outside. The cooking will take place
here. I just need to finish a few things here and there but either than that
we are good to go. Thuli and i will cook since Kwazi made dessert and
salads last night”
Nqubeko: “ What do you need from me?” he said rubbing together his
hands.
Mom: “ I need you and your brother to set the tables” they looked at
each other and smiled.
Nqoba: “ We would like that very much. Mom used to make us do that
every Sunday. Back when we were young, when we were happy” he
looked down.
Nqubeko: “ When she was alive” mom nodded and wiped her tears.
Mom: “ It’s time for Joy! Now come! We have work to do!”
I gave Siphe to Xoli and i took Sanele with me outside. He was too quiet
for my liking.
Me: “ Talk to me” he looked down rubbing his head before he sighed
deeply.
Sanele: “ There is this girl...”
Me: “ Mhmmm” he chuckled.
Sanele: “ It’s not like that sis. She is from my class and i like her. Well she
has no one and i would love it of she joined us and...”
Me: “ Whoa wait. What do you mean she has no one?”
Sanele: “ Bothe her parents died last year. She lives alone at her home. I
called her this morning and she said that she will be alone. So i was
wondering...” i interrupted him.
Me: “ Of course she can come” he hugged me. I laughed.
Sanele: “ Thank you sis. Let me go and call her” he jogged to the house. I
looked around and it was a beautiful day. Nothing was going to ruin this
day. We were surrounded with family and love. Its going to be a beautiful
Christmas.
I went back inside the house and we started sorting everything out. The
guys were outside setting the tables. Xoli had a sleeping Siphe in her
arms and she was going around taking pictures until mom took him to
bed.
I moved the presents outside. All the presents. Some were very heavy
but the whole set up was intimate; cosy and very nice. After a while
Sanele went out and came back with this green eyed white girl. We all
kept quiet and looked at them. Sanele looked at us before clearing his
throat.
Sanele: “ You guys are being creepy. Anyways this is Denise. Denise this
is my family” she was shy and her cheeks turned pink. Mom went over
and hugged her. She hugged her for a long time until we heard sniffing.
They finally pulled back and mom wiped her face.
Mom: “ Welcome child”
I went inside the house and played a mix tape that i made a few days
ago. Babes- Umngan wami came on and i heard screams from outside. I
ran outside and the brothers were dancing. They were dancing the same
thing as if they practices. I took my phone and took a video. Sanele
couldn’t stop laughing.
It was not time for lunch. Mom called everyone outside because we were
now scatted around the house. We were in the lounge watching some tv
and the guys were playing pool. We went outside and it was beautiful.
We sat down with mom sitting at the head of the table.
Mam Thuli was on the other hand. I sat next to Nqubeko who had Siphe
next to him and he was in a car seat/pram. Xoli next to Nqoba and
Sanele with Denise. We were a small group but i was just grateful that i
had a circled of people who love me. Mom stood up before we ate and
she said a few words.
Mom: “ Merry Christmas everyone. Thank you for being here, well thank
you for inviting me to your home Nqubeko. I know that all of us here wish
that things were different. Some of us wish to be with our parents; some
of us wish to be with our partners and children but we are here. Together.
God made things this way. The least we could do is embrace it and
celebrate the birth of Christ. So stop mopping around and be Merry” we
laughed at the last part before raising our glassed. Next was Mam Thuli.
Thuli: “ I don’t even know where to start. Well i have no one. Well that is
not true. I have you; all of you but the family that i thought was mine
deserted me. I raised those kids and when that man came they didn’t
hesitate to leave. What’s worse was that he was away all these years
playing happy family. I worked my butt off putting them through school
but they chose him because he had a better life. I don’t know what i
would have done had Mr Nqubeko left me out in the cold. I was a
stranger but he took me in. I will never forget it. I am forever grateful.
Merry Christmas everyone” by the time she was done the ladies were
crying; me included.
Xoli: “ Well Nokwazi knows my life story but i thought i could share with
you. When my parents died they left me with this huge hole in my heart. I
thought that their families would take care of me but all they did was take
the money, sell their valuables and left me out in the cold. Nokwazi was
there through everything with mam Londi. They took me in and here i am.
I owe them my life. As if that wasn’t enough i got to meet this wonderful
man of mine. Who loves me so much that my whole body aches. He
loves and respects me. I am grateful that i got a second chance to life
and love. Thank you everyone. Merry Christmas and I love you” she sat
down and placed a long baby kiss on Nqoba’s lips.
Me: “ Well damn those are tough acts to follow i mean you guys have
said it all BUT i just have to add how grateful i am to my mom and
brother. We come so far you guys but we are still here. I am grateful to
my best friend that she came into my life and showed me the meaning of
what a good friend and sister is. I am grateful to Nqoba my husband.
Thank you for supporting me. Nqubeko; my love. I love you and you
make me so happy. Thank you for our son. Merry Christmas baby” he
stood up and hugged me. Trust Nqubeko for wanting to outshine
everyone.
Nqoba: “ Well i am not a man of many word but my thanks will show in
the gifts i bought for each of you. Merry Christmas” he sat down causing
Nqubeko to chuckle.
Nqubeko: “ I have been sitting and listening to everyone and all i feel is
love all over. I am grateful to each and everyone of you. It’s funny how in
life you lose the one thing/person that keeps you sane not knowing that
God already has someone to fill that void. I found family and love in all of
you but most of all i found lifetime commitments because as i was
listening to you i told myself that there is nothing i wouldn’t do for each
and everyone of you. Miss Kheswa thank you. Thank you for opening up
your goldmine and giving me this rare jewel Nokwazi. Thank you for our
son maKheswa. I know i say this everyday but thank you for giving me a
second chance to prove to you just how much you and our son mean to
me. I love each and everyone of you. Nqoba; when mom left i know that
things just went upside down and we lost dad bro but look around you
man. We are surrounded by love. We have love all over us. Thank you
and Merry Christmas.” Mom stood up and went to hug him.
The speeches continued and afterwards we had lunch over jokes and
laughter. We were still getting to the gifts part. If it was up the me the day
was going to end because it was perfect.